I signed up for classes for the next 5 Sundays and I am extremely excited to have something regular and scheduled in my life. Yesterday as my instructor was showing me how to use one of the machines, I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror and freaked out. I felt sick at how much weight I've gained since I started working 4 years ago. As a student I had so much free time to exercise, cook healthy meals and be active. Since I started working and traveling so frequently, I've become lazy and stopped working out regularly. I indulge far to frequently and don't compensate by working out.
I am always thinking of random crazy things to do to lose weight from diets that I don't stick to or aggressive work outs that only last for a few days. And like every other woman, my weight fluctuates but no matter what my weight is, I have days where I think I look great and days where I beat myself up for getting so fat and feel horrible. I'm trying very hard to stop those bad days where I beat myself up. Part of it means that I need to take control of my health by eating better and making exercise a priority. Part of it means giving myself a break and being proud and confident.
Or maybe I should just get this shirt and sport it on days when I don't feel that great. Seriously who the hell would buy this?
How do you deal with body image issues?
Also I stumbled across Dana's (TheBrokeAssBride) friend's blog - Bikini By 30. Its a very inspiring story of a woman who is aiming to become fit and proud to sport a bikini before her 30th birthday.